I think the hardest and most frustrating part about discerning about something is trying to figure out if it’s really God’s calling or if it’s my wanting, or if it’s both.
I get frustrated, because like everyone else, I want God to just sit down in front of me and tell me how it is.
Of course, it doesn’t work like that (although, I bet sometimes it does.)
But the whole journey is a process.
Through it all, I will learn more about myself and more about God.
As they say, strength will rise as we wait upon the Lord.
Joseph Yoo 
I am right there with you…. even better, God can be clear and then I can second-guess and make it unclear again.
What is the proper way to wait? I always think of it as a time of paying attention to what is around you and prepping for whatever the answer is rather than just twiddling thumbs and spinning wheels. But I am finding that hard to do right now…