… 31.
31 is 31. And I remember thinking how old people in their 30’s were. And here I am. Into my 3rd decade.
I feel… I don’t know. The same. Yet different. Older and more mature, but still laughing at fart jokes and silly Internet memes.
I feel like I have accomplished nothing, but at the same time, I feel tremendously blessed.
I mean, I thought that by 31, my life would look a different than the way it is right now… at the same time, I feel like I’m where I’m supposed to be.
Weird, huh?
I thought, by the age of 31, I’d have about two kids. But, here at 31, I have none.
At the age of 24, I thought I’d want to do youth ministry for the rest of my life.
At the age of 28, I felt that I wanted to distance myself from youth ministry.
At the age of 31, I’m still heavily involved in youth ministry. There are moments I dread. There are moments I absolutely love. And thankfully, the moments of love far outweigh the other ones. 🙂
I thought, surely by 31, I’ll be done with all the ordination stuff.
Here I am, stressing over the papers. Again.
So, in my personal goals, I’m really nowhere I thought I’d be.
But in God’s plan, I feel like I’m exactly where I am supposed to be.
I can honestly say that my trust is fully in God regarding my future.
Sure, I’m curious about what’s going to happen.
Yea, I stress myself out by trying to control things about the road ahead that I don’t really have control over.
But for the most part, I know that this is where God wants me. I know that these moments of my ministerial career is a time of learning and being groomed into a pastor God created me to be.
This is just a long-winded and roundabout way of saying that I’m tremendously blessed.
I’m blessed that I have a job that I love and work with people that I care about.
I’m blessed to have a wonderful family.
I’m blessed to have most of my friends.
I’m simply blessed.
So, thank you everyone for your birthday wishes.
It’s going to be an awesome year!
If you think 31 is tough, try thinking about turning 69 as I will need to do in a few months.
I know I shouldn’t complain. Happy early birthday, though 🙂