I’m Hungry…

I don’t like to admit how nervous and anxious the whole ordination process made me.
But today, I had a hard time focusing on anything and everything.
I came into the office and realized I just couldn’t sit still and accomplish anything.
So, I snuck out to go to Starbucks.
Sat there. Answered some emails. Tried my best to do my devotions and not think about anything regarding United Methodist Church.

I sat there marveling how a phone call was dictating my whole morning and all my emotions.
I found out someone from church (who I just adore) was in the hospital, so I strolled over to the hospital to see how he was doing. But he was sleeping, so I stayed and talked to his daughter for a short while.

Time. Couldn’t. Go. Any. Slower.

I decided to go home. It was about lunch time. I should be hungry, but food was the furthest thing from my mind.
I came home. Mindlessly sat on the couch, playing some odd game on my iPad, not knowing what to do or what to think.
I was avoiding facebook for some reason, and realized how limited my Internet options were without facebook.
Exchanged some texts with Dae.
Anything to keep the time passing.

Then the phone rang.
On the other end was someone from the BOOM. (Board of Ordained Ministry)

He said that I had passed.
I responded with something like, “FINALLY!”

When it finally sank in that everything was said and done, all I could think of was how hungry I was.

The Wife and I went out for a celebratory lunch. I felt relieved. And grateful for all those people who gave me words of encouragement and support along the way.

The funny thing is, since I found out my papers passed to this morning, I’ve thought of everything I would do if I didn’t pass again this year.
My personal journal entries had all sorts of ideas and dreams of what my next step would/could be.
Never once did I talk, think or write about what would happen if I passed.
So, when I found out I did pass, I really didn’t know what to say or how to feel. All I knew was that I was starved.

It’s been a long road and journey, so much so that this ending seems a bit anti-climatic. But I’d prefer it to be that way.

So begins a new journey.

I’m glad to have this chapter of my life come to an end.

… but man… the commissioning service is on 6/16, otherwise known as our anniversary in the Yoo Household… I don’t think I can skip out on the evening services to celebrate 6 years of marriage with my awesome wife, though a quiet celebratory dinner would be much, much preferable.

Having our anniversary constantly be near the time of Annual Conference does suck…

6 thoughts on “I’m Hungry…

  1. Congratulations on passing your BOOM! And I understand the anniversary connection, I was ordained on Matt & I’s seventh wedding anniversary on June 7, 2010!

  2. Congratulations!!!!! That’s awesome news! I am delighted that all of your hard work and self reflection came through and was acknowledged by the board!

  3. Praise God! It felt strange to me at first – it is the anti-climax. But then the ordination service will be that mix of climax and whole new beginning. It is like arriving, but arriving at the top of a mountain. Until now, you could only focus on getting to the top and see nothing beyond that. Once up there, you can see how far you have come but there is this whole unchartered world in front of you (and that was really the point of the climb, not getting to the top itself.) And it does not have numbered steps with committee votes every step of the way. So it really is stepping out with God in new ways. But you know God has called you to it and has been preparing you for whatever comes next…. Take thou authority!

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