Where the Sidewalk Ends

But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. — Philippians 3:13-14

By the time this post goes live, the announcement of my transition would’ve been made at my church.

Starting July 1st, I’ll be on a Leave of Absence in the Texas Annual Conference for personal reasons.
This isn’t the platform to go into the details that led to this destination. But I will say this:
Where I am is based on the sum of my choices.
Simple as that.
… although that makes it sound like something bad happened. There’s no scandal. Nothing too exciting.

So what’s next?
I… can’t really say. Not out of confidentiality or what not — but simply because I just don’t know.
I did receive permission to see if I can find an appointment outside of the conference. But that’s easier said than done.
I can simply look for a job in the Houston area and then put my name in for appointments for July 1, 2020. Which is also easier said than done.

I have placed my family in a precarious position — for which I’m deeply sorry for.

I am thoroughly disappointed that the sum of my choices have led me and our family here.
However, I can’t linger on regrets because it’ll entrap me in the past.
I can’t give into worry too much because it’ll enclose me in an unhealthy future.
We take it one day at a time — trying to be still and trusting that God is with me.
God will pave a path through this. That much, I know.
Until then, in the words of the modern philosopher Kacey Musgraves:
it is what it is
till it ain’t anymore.
I hold onto hope that “till it ain’t anymore” will be sooner than later.

I’m also grateful for friends and family walking with us throughout this season.

This, too, shall pass.
Though this may be where this current sidewalk ends, by no means is it the end of our journey.

So please keep us in your prayers — if you’re the praying type. If not, please send good vibes our way.

There are things that have been giving me fuel, hope, and strength (outside of loved ones).
For instance, I’ve just been immersed in the book of Philippians — the Epistle of Joy. Paul was in a much crappier situation than what I find myself in and yet he was still able to rejoice. I need that mojo and reminder during this season.

But certain songs too.
Like Lauren Daigle’s Trust in You;
Kendrick Lamar’s Alright

And this song that often feels like God is speaking to me through:

Rise up this mornin'
Smile at the risin' sun
Three little birds
On my doorstep
Singin' sweet songs
Of melodies pure and true
This is my message to you
Singin' don't worry, about a thing
'Cause every little thing is gonna be alright
Don't worry, about a thing
'Cause every little thing is gonna be alright

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